" The most critical breakthrough of faith you and I could ever experience is to let God bring us to a place where we trust Him--period. We don't just trust Him to let us avoid what we fear most. We determine to trust Him no matter what, even if our worst nightmare befalls us. We have no greater victory and can render Satan no harsher blow."
I remember growing up I would lay in bed at night and say out loud, "I would just die if my parents divorced. I know I would just shrivel up and die and that would be the worst thing that could ever happen to me dear LORD PLEASE don't let me shrivel up and die of that!!!" Guess what!? My biggest fear. The biggest, scariest thing that I could come up with at my young age of praying that..came true. My parents divorced 6 years ago this month. My world came crashing down around me. I inherited debt I did not know I would have to pay back (student loans) a huge aching heart, a confused dad, a mourning mom, a grieving sister, and some very confused family members and friends. I took care of my mom as she battled with depression and my sister as she tried to grasp the situation. I endured endless sleepless nights and found myself gripping on to the word of the Lord with all that was in me. If you opened my Bible today you would find the book of Job highlighted all in yellow. I knew. That God was with me. I knew that we would make it. We did. My family emerged this holiday season in the brightest light I could ever have fathomed! I want you to praise Jesus with me that I did not suffer for one SECOND this holiday season from depression (and neither did my mom). This year it was celebrated that the Lord Jesus was born and came to bring us life and life abundantly and a new day came for my family.
I am praying for you in your deepest sadness and in your deepest fear that you will know that:
"if ________________ (insert your worst fear here) then God will take care of you"
"If _________________ then God has a plan"
"If__________________ then God desires to accomplish something monumental in me"
"If__________________ then God's going to demonstrate His sufficiency to me."
Praying for you today dear readers. I love you all!